I hate being so heavily reliant on medication to live my life. Having to find a balance between my antidepressant, mood stabilizer, birth control, etc. I’ve recently stopped taking birth control after three years and can feel the weight coming off, but my appetite is ridiculous. I forget to take my antidepressant and mood stabilizer for a couple days and I can feel it. Everyday is a guessing game of are the emotions I’m feeling really mine or what the medication tells my body to feel? I don’t know what ME is. Don’t get me wrong, I feel happy, but what is real?